Waiting For a Miracle

As many of you know, Trinity is in the pediatric ICU at St. Luke's Regional Medical Center in Boise, Idaho. She's been having seizures but as yet there is no diagnosis aas to what the underlying problem might be. Autumn and I are learning a great deal and I am getting a crash course in ICU medicine. Trinity has been sedated since Monday morning about 2am Mountian Time. She is on a ventilator, so the sedative is to keep her from fighting all the tubes.

One thing we have learned is that we don't have control of this situation. It's hard because I don't want my daughter to suffer. I don't want her to have permanent damage from this. I want my daughter back because I miss her terribly. But I have to let all of that go and trust that God has our best in mind. I have to because I can't do a single thing to help her right now. So I pray and cry a little and sing to my baby. Autumn is doing the same.

We have been incredibly blessed to have support from all over the world in prayer and kind thoughts and words. Those that can, have driven here and supported us with hugs, laundry and good company. We are so grateful to all of you for your thoughts and prayers. Please keep them up! Here are a few pictures from the journey so far:

This was actually last Wednesday at Barley Brown's, where we went for dinner for Autumn's birthday. It was her first time in a big girl high chair at a restaurant. What a big girl!

This is her on Saturday, after she had been in the hospital for a day and was showing improvement. She declined the evening after this, so this is the last time we saw the Trinity that we were used to.
If you look closely you can see Trinity's handprint on the mirror. One of the things we do at home is to look at ourselves in the mirror. She likes to reach out and touch her reflection. We did this once at the hospital before we took a nap together.

Autumn has been so vigilant this whole time. I don't know how she does it. She has been outside only twice in the last 5 days. For those of you who know Autumn, you know that this is unusual. Autumn usually can't go 5 hours without getting out for a bit. I am so amazed by her and so proud of her as a mom. She has been such a great support to me as well. She is strong.

Through all of this, we continue to rely on God's mercy and providence. I was reading the Bible this morning, in the book of Psalms. Here is a Psalm of David that I am encouraged by:

Psalm 27:13-14

I am still confident of this:

I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the
living.

Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the
Lord.

Grace and peace be with all of you as it has been with us. Thank you for loving us, praying with us, crying with us and continuing to hope.